The Girl with the Magic Wand

Photo by Dona Laurita

Photo by Dona Laurita

This photo shows a child's hand waving a magical wand.

Her mother, a professional photographer, took this photo of her daughter when she was small. 

This child loved to sing, dance and make people happy. 

This child was diagnosed with brain cancer as a teenager. 

This teenager became my teen advocate for the Hammeras Group and spoke at my events. 

This young adult, Jules Laurita, succumbed to her brain cancer just 18 months after diagnosis. 

This picture of a child's hand and a magical wand was chosen specifically for me, by Jules, because "I wave my magic wand and make people well."  

No I don't, Jules. But I love that you thought I could. 

I have stared at this picture for 2 months, often paralyzed by it. I am a professional cancer advocate and I have helped over 5000 patients in my career; many have passed away. I knew them all. I had love for them all. I learned from them all. Jules was the one who crossed the boundary from professionalism to personal. I loved her and I miss her deeply. Yet I am not sorry. Jules and I were supposed to meet in this life and she was meant to be my forever teen advocate. She led me to this next journey in life and has opened the broader window to my cancer advocacy program. 

Changes must be made for cancer patients and now I can look at this picture of Jules and her tiny hand with the magic wand and understand where we are headed and why: a national media project to educate the public and help families navigate their cancer journey. I have been working hard to find a solution for patients and families who cannot afford world-class care and who are unsure what resources are available to them. I believe this can be achieved with inter-hospital collaboration and I am doing everything I can to make this happen.

Jules's journey is sadly the perfect example of the difficulties of navigating through our complicated healthcare system. Most of us are not aware that 50% of us will be touched by cancer in some way. Some are very rare, and each unique, so learning where to go and by whom to have it treated is a paramount decision. With a rare pediatric brain cancer, Jules’s parents were faced with this same challenge. They were settled with their local hospital who had their advice for treatment, but they wanted to consult with others to ensure the best treatment for Jules. At this point, I had been introduced to the family and quickly moved to coordinate a consult with one of the top five research facilities in the nation in neurosurgery and neuro-oncology. We also requested a third consult on the east coast and a fourth elsewhere. Of the four hospitals, the three consults were in agreement, but their hometown hospital was not completely on board. Greatly complicating matters, the local hospital was opposed to collaborating with the others. Through finesse and conversation, their hospital finally agreed to consult with the others. Scans were shared throughout and collaboration was made possible — for the benefit of Jules. 

Later in her cancer journey, Jules and her family, through their own exhaustive research, were able to find a very promising clinical trial at Duke University. Undergoing the clinical trial at Duke meant flying to North Carolina for the trial then flying back to Denver, where their local hospital had to handle emergencies and complications from the trial. Collaboration was critical. Often when Jules was hospitalized, the doctors at her local hospital had to rely on Duke to help guide them. There are many unknowns with clinical trials; working together is paramount. Woefully, the clinical trial did not help Jules and she passed away. 

In my career as a cancer advocate, Jules’s story is similar to every story— a cancer diagnosis that requires urgent decisions that are often not possible. The "where to go/who to see for my unique cancer" is not at our fingertips, outside consults may not be affordable, and hospitals don't work outside their own networks to assist patients. We may think this type of care and collaboration exists, but it does not. 

I have a picture of a little hand with a magic wand that was chosen specifically for me. But not so fast, Jules. You are the one waving the magic wand; I am simply the one working to make YOUR wish come true: changing the siloed nature of healthcare by making collaboration among institutions for the benefit of the patient our new reality. 

I am honored to carry this forward for you my sweet Jules. I think you will be very proud.

Choose the Best Insurance Before, Not After, a Critical Diagnosis

Insurance problems are never easy to handle but this has been a particularly difficult month for many of my patients due to insurance issues. One patient required urgent surgery for removal and biopsy of a mass; time was of the essence. The surgeon was able to find room in the schedule on a Friday at 3:00pm. All was in place. Thursday evening at 8:00pm, the patient was informed the surgery was not authorized at that hospital and would need to be performed at one of their contracted hospitals at a later date. 

Instead of an evening with family in preparation for surgery that would most likely result in a cancer diagnosis, a different stress entered the picture. The patient had no choice but to set aside the hope for a quick surgery, and begin a battle with authorities in the morning. Early Friday morning, the patient and surgeon were on the phone with insurance making their case to keep the scheduled surgery for that day. At 10:00am they did finally receive the authorization to maintain the original surgical schedule with the chosen hospital and surgeon. Cancer was indeed found. 

These battles are all too common.

Last year I lost a Glioblastoma patient. His was an extremely aggressive cancer; moving quickly to his untimely death just 5 months after diagnosis. Once the ER scans revealed a brain mass, patient was discharged home to await the additional test of an MRI, which would reveal more about the cancer. His insurance took 8 full days to authorize the MRI. This may not seem like a long period of time but this man declined rapidly in just 14 days; from walking into the ER with an odd weakness in his arm and gait, to loss of mobility in just 2 weeks. To this day I wonder if that 8 day wait could have made a difference in his prognosis if treatment could have been started before his rapid decline. 

Mark Mathias of Mathias Benefits Group, an expert in the field of health insurance, is committed to helping us navigate and prepare for this complicated issue. In reading through his recommendations, one can certainly appreciate how time-consuming and frustrating health insurance can be when we are faced with critical issues. Choosing the right insurance before that time comes matters, and Mark explains why. His words below:


Choosing the Best Medical Coverage when you have Cancer

Most cancer patients don’t really learn about their medical benefits until they are diagnosed with a life threatening illness like cancer. That’s “par for the course”: most of us don’t learn about our auto insurance coverage until we have an accident. Hopefully, you made good choices that provided needed coverage before you needed it.

These are some quick thoughts about insurance coverage in general:

1) Understand the tradeoffs between monthly premiums and deductibles/copays – low monthly premiums (HMO or CDHP vs. PPO) usually have very high deductibles and copays in relative terms. You need to do the math to understand that low up-front costs might have high back end costs. Every plan is different so get out your calculator.

2) Dial in on your pharmacy plan – make sure each of your medications is covered, understand the most cost effective way to get your medications delivered – retail v mail order. Understand that major vendors (Target and Costco) are less expensive than the retail pharmacies.

3) See if your expensive medications offer a patient assistance program – many manufacturers offer discount programs to keep you buying their medications. Work the system to your favor.

4) Be sure that your doctor and preferred hospitals are in network for your plan – you need to present your actual plan numbers to be certain. Don’t accept the doctor’s office statement, “why, yes. Dr. Smith takes Anthem.” She may take some Anthem plans, but not all. You need to understand the network limitations of your plans – the providers don’t care until they bill you. Do not rely on general statements.

5) Think about your medical future as it applies to your medical benefits and plan ahead. You may need access to research centers in other parts of the country. You may need access to different physicians for second opinions. Find out now.

6) Check on the mental health benefits of your medical plan – no, serious medical illness doesn’t make you crazy. It can tax your mental health and the health of your family. Understand that there are mental health resources to use. So, use them.

7) Be sure that your family keeps up on their health and well-being. They need to carve out time to assure that they are “tan, fit and Rested.”


These are the basics. Just like you are fighting back in your illness, you need to fightback and assure that you are getting the most possible from your medical benefits plan.


Mark Mathias


The Urgency of Now

Friends:  As I prepare for our next cancer event in Santa Barbara on November, 2, 2018, I need your input and suggestions, not your treasures. 

I recall the Mrs. Fields experience years ago. She developed a cookie that we all wanted to make; we wanted the recipe!  There are different variations in recipes for cookies; all good, some better, Mrs. Fields was the star! I want your input so we can make our movement the best it can be. 

The cancer concerts are my way to educate the public and encourage the international healthcare community to work together, to share their analyzed data, to collaborate for cures!  We have thousands of foundations in the world raising funds for their research. We have thousands of research facilities and researchers working hard for cures but they are not connected. The dots are not connected! Our progress in finding cures lies in sharing our best recipes together, not working in thousands of separate kitchens. 

At this point in my career, I am certain my role in life is to connect those dots and it is often not possible because there are too many recipes.

As a healthcare advocate specializing in cancer, I have seen too many lives lost to cancer. It is a story that is repeated daily affecting children and adults. A story whose ending I want to help change!  Through the generosity of caring and influential people, our cancer concerts are a gift to each community. We are not a foundation, nor a business, but an international movement of awareness and education. We do not request donations. We use the incredible gift of music from the renowned Mike Garson and special guests to lighten a difficult subject. We offer a spectacular evening and the event in Santa Barbara will absolutely not disappoint. What I am requesting from you is to begin to spread the word about this "collaborate for cures" movement; it is urgent! The more people who become better educated, the faster we can make progress and lives can be saved. My website is listed as a free resource with tools to guide patients who are newly diagnosed as well as discussing critical advances in collaboration. The concert in Santa Barbara will have many surprises that I will add as we get closer, please share with your friends and follow our progress!

If you have suggestions on how to grow this movement, please reach out. Our contact information can be found at the top right of the website under Contact. We have to do this together and Santa Barbara is our next stop!


Clinical Trials: When Is the Right Time?

In our important global fight for cancer and disease as part of Joe Biden's Cancer Moonshot initiative (global collaboration via the first-ever international data-sharing platform, Cavatica), clinical trials is a crucial part of our future. For the most part, we know little about clinical trials. I have asked Amanda Haddock, President and Co-Founder of Dragon Master Foundation to write this  blog for Hammeras Group. 

Understanding clinical trials, how they may play a role in your life and where to find them, is #3 to the Hammeras Group diagnostic tools. Become familiar; someday they could save your life, or that of a loved-one. Read Amanda's words below:



Virtually all advances in the care of cancer patients have occurred as a result of clinical research.

Before my son, David, was diagnosed with brain cancer, I thought that clinical trials were scary experiments that were little better than science experiments. I remember when it was suggested to us that we should look into clinical trials for David. I remember the “no” screaming in my head, but by that point, I had already heard scarier words: Malignant. Glioblastoma Multiforme. Terminal.

At that time, there was no hope for David using traditional medicine. To be honest, our doctors were pretty frank that the clinical trials didn’t hold a lot of promise either. It was difficult to know what to do. Should we take a chance on a traditional treatment that statistically didn’t show much chance of helping David? Or should we choose a clinical trial that was mostly an unknown? At some point, that old quote came to me, “Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over Again and Expecting Different Results.”

It felt like we were not going to get anywhere with the treatment that had been failing people for decades. When we looked at it like that, the clinical trial seemed like the only option. As we explored the clinical trial details at a deeper level, we started to understand the process better, and it became a lot less scary.

Clinical trials make sense for patients who don’t have a treatment plan that will give them their desired outcome. People approach cancer and its treatments very differently, and it is important to take that into account when considering trials, but if the traditional treatment plan offered seems unacceptable, then a clinical trial may be what you are looking for.

In case you may one day find yourself having to navigate a similar situation, here are some details you may need to know. 

How Can You Find Clinical Trials?

 At most major cancer centers, the oncologists will have some suggestions of clinical trials that are available. However, you may want to do your own research to make sure nothing goes overlooked. An excellent website to do clinical trial research is It will let you search for clinical trials throughout the world based on your exact diagnosis.

I’m always hesitant to recommend talking to other patients because I think there are a lot of biases represented in the patient population. That being said, you may get much more detailed information from fellow patients than you would from the clinical trial doctor because of confidentiality issues. Just remember that  each person is unique and your experience may not match theirs.

 What Questions Should You Ask?

Depending on what phase the trial is in, you may have access to a little or a lot of information, but here are some questions you can ask to decide if this is a process you are willing to consider:

1.     What phase is the clinical trial in? (More on that here.)

2.     What is the expected outcome of this phase of the trial?

3.     What are the known side effects of the treatment, and how likely are they to occur in each patient? How do those side effects compare to the “standard” treatment?

4.     How far would you need to travel to participate in the trial? How often would you need to go there, and how long would you need to stay?

5.     What kind of tests will be done to monitor your progress on the trial?

6.     How is the data from the clinical trial being shared? Will you be able to get a report on the results? And how quickly will that information be shared?

7.     What assistance is available for clinical trial participants?

8.     Will going on this trial limit the other treatment options that are available to you after the trial?

9.     Will the researchers work directly with your current oncologist? Who will be responsible for your care while on the trial?

10. How long will the trial continue? Can you stay on the trial treatment as long as you are responding positively to it?

11. Under what circumstances would you be kicked off the trial?

This is obviously not an inclusive list, but hopefully it will help you help you identify what issues are important to you.

How Can You Afford A Clinical Trial?

This is going to vary, but there are several funding sources for legitimate clinical trials.

1.     Funding from foundations to the clinical trial list – These funds can cover anything from the treatment itself to travel. This type of funding is managed by the clinical trial.

2.     Funding from a drug company – These funds can also cover anything from the treatment itself to travel. This type of funding is managed by the clinical trial.

3.     Funding from your insurance company – While a lot of insurance companies won’t pay for a clinical trial, they usually will cover “standard” tests that are needed as part of your care. Things like blood tests and MRIs might be covered by your insurance company.

4.     Funding from foundations directly to patient – Foundations may have funds available to help patients travel to and from treatments. It is worth exploring both national foundations and local foundations to see what they can offer.

5.     Independent fundraising sites like GoFundMe. These sites are definitely more work, but can provide funding for all sorts of expenses from clinical trials to help with your monthly bills.


These questions and suggestions only scratch the surface of the complicated world that cancer patients need to navigate. We will make it an ongoing priority to help share information that will make the path a little smoother for all.  

What John McCain, David Bowie and My Dad Have In Common

by Tim Olesiuk


Cancer. It affects us all, but rarely do we prepare.

To whomever may be reading this blog, hi my name is Tim Olesiuk. I just lost my dad to Glioblastoma, a shocking diagnosis that 14,000 patients will hear in the United States each year.

My dad was a healthy guy, working four days a week. He was a vegetarian for over 30 years, and active in everything he did. He came home from work just like any other day, but this day he told us his whole left side went numb on his way home. We took him to the hospital, not expecting to hear much besides maybe a pinched nerve or a food allergy. We all were completely shocked to hear that they found multiple brain tumors on an MRI scan. I put my job on hold to move back home and to help my mom and brother take care of my dad. It’s crazy to think about the fact that on a Wednesday my dad was at work just fine but Thursday day he was in the ER with strange symptoms and a brain scan that showed a cancerous mass. Two short weeks later, my Dad had lost his mobility and most of his memory. Five months later, he died.

By now you have heard Mike Garson's version of "He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother" (watch here). The adult patient in the video is my incredible father, Mike. While facing the hardest and saddest experience of my entire life, my family and I also wanted to allow documentation of our journey so that we might be able to lift some burden in others’ lives who may need to face similar challenges in their walk with cancer or disease. 

We were fortunate to have Hammeras Group help us navigate our cancer journey but most people do not and this always stood out to us.  In our ongoing moments of despair and uncertainty, we were always aware that there were other children and adults and families who were scared and unprepared like we were. Every day we experienced another issue we were unprepared for.   

I wanted to write this blog so that I could personally pay tribute to my Dad and the man he was. By doing this, I also hope our story can help encourage some basic steps to being just little more prepared. If this helps just one person than that would be a blessing.

I learned a lifetime about what works and what doesn't in our healthcare process in such a short time. With all the great care my dad received in the hospital, once we were home my family and I became his care givers, giving him multiple shots a day followed with specific medications administered at certain times. We had no training and no background in medicine, so it was scary for all of us, because we didn’t want to make a mistake. What kept us going is our love for my dad and his strong constitution. 

We were all with my Dad in the Emergency Room for simple issues that didn't seem right. We learned about his brain cancer only 6 hours after we walked through the door. Six hours of wondering why my Dad's whole left side weakness was occurring, to learning he had brain cancer. 

We sat in the ER as a family together laughing and supporting my Dad, only to find this all change within 30 seconds of the doctor walking in to share the news. The emotions of that day are everything you can imagine. We were shocked beyond the ability to describe. We were scared. We were sad. 

As the Doctor provided the news and left the room, the thought that kept resurfacing in each of us was "now what do we do? WHAT DO WE DO - WHERE DO WE GO - WHO DO WE SEE???"  

You see, we don’t spend much time preparing for this question because we don't want to. We never think it will happen to us. I am only 30 years old and it wasn't a thought I wanted to entertain in my life for myself or for my family. It was always something that was out there and something I would hopefully not have to face someday. That someday found my family and I in just 30 seconds. 

Later that night we had a conversation with our primary care doctor who was connected with Hammeras Group. This is when Candy stepped in to assure us she would help lift some of the strain of the path before us. She was able to help us organize some of the questions cycling through our minds, especially the, "what do we do?”  That first question was answered pretty quickly: we were in a good community hospital but we needed a top-notch research facility to consult with. We live in Southern California so there is no shortage of exceptionally ranked teaching facilities in Los Angeles. We were quickly settled with the best Neuro-Oncology team at UCLA who began to help us guide Dad's journey. This was such an important decision in our journey, because it helped eliminate the need to put so much effort into our research to find the most qualified location and specialists to treat a complex cancer with potential for clinical trials. We have heard that many recently diagnosed families spend a lot of time Googling. By understanding the importance of the role a research hospital can play in the treatment protocol, we were able to save that time. We were able to spend that time together as a family. 

Even though we didn't get the outcome for Dad that we hoped and prayed for, we don't question our decisions. We so wish things were different and that we were back in our normal lives with Dad but we feel peaceful knowing that we were in the best hands. We don't wonder; "what if?”  We just wish it didn't have to be. 

Candy asked me to write this blog to help others. I’m happy to continue writing to others who are experiencing the same feelings. You are not alone. In honoring my dad’s legacy, I promised him I will continue to be a catalyst in bringing awareness to others. As the first step to help others, for me, this is an easy question to answer; community hospitals are a great place to be for most of our healthcare issues. But for the more difficult cancers and diseases, a top-notch research facility will be the best chance for the right diagnoses and treatment. Be prepared to know where you would seek care if something complex occurs with your health. My family and I are so grateful that these doors were opened for my Dad.

Collaborate for Cures


Recently I received a new healthcare referral from a man who wasn’t feeling right. Something was different. The visit to the ER resulted in Glioblastoma— a progressive and terminal brain tumor. Living out the worst nightmare, this patient has to immediately adjust to the diagnosis while also trying to decide on best course of action. This includes decisions on next steps, best facilities for treatment, which doctors to choose. Medical records, scans and labs need to be collected. Family needs to be told. Insurance begins to play a role. Fear and insecurity become overwhelming. A waiting game ensues. Why?

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A child begins vomiting 20 times per day with no illness. Six months later, she has not recovered.  She has a gastronomy tube and a specialist who is handling the symptoms, but not a diagnosed disease. New pain occurs. Weakness. The doctors suspect Dysautonomia. The limited specialty clinics and specialists don’t make appointments until they make a complete review of all records and this takes 4 weeks. The first clinic won’t accept the child as a patient. A second clinic also denies an appointment. Why?

Each of these true experiences have a common theme – an unplanned and urgent healthcare issue that requires planned and researched decisions. However, this is rarely possible. Why?

With 30 years of hospital management experience, I now own a healthcare collaboration business and I make every effort to take the burden off families when a healthcare crises occurs. As the business has matured, so has the complexity of the patients; I am almost solely focused on cancer and rare diseases now. It is no easy task to learn the genetics of a cancer, the stage of a cancer, the type of cancer and try to match it with the top facilities and specialists, as well as the decision of which treatment and why, or when to join a clinical trial and how to find one. It is no easy task to find experts to diagnose a hidden or rare disease when the patient is suffering but answers are minimal. Opinions often vary. Our most trusted source of research is Google. Why?

In my pursuit of narrowing down the field in order to apply it to the patients I serve, I learned about Joe Biden’s Cancer Moonshot initiative, with specific interest on data sharing collaboration. The Children’s Brain Tumor Tissue Consortium was founded by two doctors who are passionate about encouraging researchers and healthcare facilities to share their data openly with the world. One would think this already exists. Until now it didn’t! The Consortium is now affiliated with 15 of the highest ranked facilities worldwide so that they all have access to the analysis of data to include tissue from cancers and rare diseases and they are studying together an open source, cloud-based data platform; Cavatica. This data can then be used to provide the right treatment, the first time, for patients. 

We finally have the potential to remove the guessing game from our treatments, which also eliminates risks, and use of drugs that don’t work. 

I developed “Collaborate for Cures” in an effort to begin a grass roots movement to educate the public about the Consortium and the advances being made for cancer and rare diseases.  The overall mission is for patients and consumers to become better educated and engaged in their own healthcare and encourage the international medical community to collaborate together, for cures. 

Memories in the Face of Tragedy


Like all of us today, hearts are broken for those lost in Las Vegas. I would like to share a little known story about an event that occurred in my life as a little child in Indiana. I do so because I have walked this walk and always feel a kinship, in a horrific way, for lives lost. This picture is from an explosion I witnessed from the first row of the Holiday On Ice with my Dad and pregnant Stepmother. For some reason, our lives were spared, but everyone surrounding us died. Seventy-four people were killed and hundreds injured. I was carried out of the event drenched in blood. The ice was covered in blood. Body parts were everywhere. I can recall my accounts of the event, that "there were dollies flying through the air." I remember vividly, daily. The PTSD has shaped who I am today. I cannot tolerate noises, fireworks, or thunder. I cannot tolerate vomiting as I saw it too much. This all brings up too many difficult memories in my life. I relive it constantly.

There is more to this story but I felt compelled to share it. For those of us who live through a horrific experience such as this, it becomes part of who we are, with memories that never go away. Ever. Our experience is the same whether it is an organic explosion (my experience), a purposeful explosion, a shooting, or a truck that runs over innocent pedestrians. It is carnage and blood and death. It does not look or feel different just because the origin is different. Either way, we have to endure the experience and the visual of what we saw our entire lives. What I saw never leaves me. What the survivors saw this weekend will never leave them. Investigations must occur in every scenario, and will. For now and for the next few weeks, it is important to give these people the respect and love to allow them to physically and emotionally heal. To bury family members. To come through surgeries. To receive grief counseling. To hold onto each other.

The why to this all will become clear, but for now, these poor survivors and family members need the support and quiet and calm. Inside their souls, is loss and fear and memories that will forever shape them, and it will not be easy. They will tell us what they need and then we can support them. We cannot do this for them, nor should we.

Offering so much love during this time.

The Jane Connection


That's Jane on the far right. Incredibly confident. Sweet as they come. Loving. Glowing Grandma. Wife. Mother. Patriot. Jane succumbed to her cancer yesterday and as I look at this picture, all I can see is the incredible weaving of a purposeful life. 

Jane and I met just under 2 years ago as she was diagnosed with a rather complex cancer. She and I connected immediately and we spent significant time together during her initial diagnoses and treatment protocol. Around this same time was when I also referred a child to Dr. Jay Storm at CHOP and learned about the Children's Brain Tumor Tissue Consortium. More specifically Cavatica, as the first and only free cancer data-sharing platform in the world. As part of Joe Biden's Cancer Moonshot Initiative to encourage the world to collaborate together for cancer cures, I was riveted. So was Jane. She was hoping there were clinical trials that may extend her life and so did I. With renewed interest in the cancer process, a process I have experienced hundreds of times with patients in my healthcare career, I became committed to the future of data-sharing. The realization of how this would impact the future of cancer, the ability to have international research data placed in one location to benefit ALL patients became my personal objective as well. I became a strong voice in the community for the future of cancer and Jane and I would have many discussions about this during her own personal journey.

Within 6 months, I formulated a plan to assist the CBTTC and its international mission. Initially this would include a "Committee" on the west coast to kick off our journey. The Committee was easily formed and included a few of California's most connected and passionate leaders, doctors and celebrities. It also included three families walking their own cancer journey, one of which was my sweet friend Jane. In December, 2016 we gathered for an intimate dinner of 50 to discuss plans and goals for this international endeavor. The picture I am sharing is from that evening and includes Mike Garson (David Bowie's long-time composer, pianist, and friend), CJ and Lisalla Wilson (Angels Pitcher and his wife, an international supermodel), Jane's personal Physician and spouse, myself, and Jane. Together we planned our introductory event in Los Angeles. The concert that would introduce, encourage, support and urge the international healthcare community to "collaborate for cures" by joining the data-sharing movement. On this night, Jane and her family and friends enjoyed a lovely night knowing they were part of a growing movement for the future of cancer. A legacy Jane wanted to leave. 

Two weeks ago, Jane's friends received a personal letter from her, some of which I will share as a tribute to the incredible person she was:


"I Have Been Blessed"

I have been blessed with family who love me and whom I love deeply. Jim and I have tried to accomplish one of the greatest tasks set before leave the world better than you found it. Hopefully I have touched your life for the better as you have mine.  Because I love you so much, I wanted you to know that the cancer that I have has not responded to treatments or clinical trials. My doctors and I have decided that the best path forward is for my medical team to focus on keeping me as comfortable as possible. I am getting better at goodbyes....but words still catch in my throat and I lack the energy needed to speak to each of you personally so please know this:

Throughout my entire life I have had you by my side. Different friends at different times. Some friends at all times. I want to thank you deeply for being a ripple on the water that gently eased my boat through this life. 

I am at peace. I am still counting my blessings and you are among them.  Love, Jane


As I have reflected on Jane's life, what she meant to me personally, and looked back at this picture together, what stands out to me is how she weaved a life that could forever change our cancer path. Jane seemed to intuitively understand that she herself could not be saved but that she could forever leave a legacy to leave the world better than she had found it.


To Jane:  In our time together, I knew you were always at peace and I felt it! You mattered in life and I will forever think of you and your determination. We will continue our cancer fight; for you and with you. Together we continue to encourage the world to "collaborate for cures." What a blessing YOU were to each of us.

A New Hope

I have been anxious about how I would begin my blog, even wondering if I could determine how to select just one experience to share. Which one? 

With sweet thankfulness to my 4-year-old granddaughter, who left a mess on my my coffee table this week that included a book, I chose Mattie Stepanek, author of "Journey Through Heartsongs.” Actually, I think it chose me!

In a quiet evening alone at home, I turned on my TV to watch the first day of college football and reflect on the past week. I glanced at my coffee table that had not been cleaned up since three nights ago. This was a night that I was in Los Angeles with patients while my family was gathered for dinner at my home. By the look of the coffee table, it appeared that my granddaughter had selected this book from our bookcase. I had not thought about this book, or Mattie, for over 15 years. Seeing it brought tears to my eyes as I picked it up to glance through it again. I initially felt sadness that I may have forgotten Mattie but this quickly turned into joy as I realized his life and his words just provided my first blog. 

Mattie Stepanek was only 13 years old when he passed away of a rare form of dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy  Mattie had a fulfilled purpose in life as a young child; he was a self-proclaimed "peace maker.” He was often interviewed on Oprah Winfrey's show. He was friends with Jimmy Carter. He wrote a book. He was a poet. His three older siblings passed away before him, of the same disease. 

This blog is not about Mattie's disease, or his death. It is about his message to me tonight, via finding his book on my coffee table. It is about his words because tonight, Mattie Stepanek was remembered once again. It is a joy to share four of his poems, with special dedications. Finding Mattie's book was no coincidence. 

Thank you Mattie!




For the world, I thought of you when I read this:

Believing for the Journey

Every day,

Everyone in the world

Should do at least

One thing nice for others.

Doing so can help each person

Believe in himself or herself

More fully, and

Give confidence that may

Inspire each person

To do more and 

More new and good things

For the self,

For others, and 

For the world.

Those positive attitudes

And actions

Can be the first of many steps

Towards the journey

For world peace.

And world peace,

Harmony, and

Confidence are essential

For our future.

(May 2000)


For our movement; "Collaborate For Cures" ( Mattie wanted us to do this!:

A New Hope

I need a hope.....a new hope.

A hope that reaches for the stars, and 

That does not end in violence or war,

A hope that makes peace on earth, and

That does not create evil in the world,

A hope that finds cures for all diseases, and

That does not make people hurt,

In their bodies, in their hearts,

Or most of all, in their spirits.

I need a hope...a new hope,

A hope that inspires me to live, and

To make all these things happen,

So that the whole world can have

A new hope, too

(May 1999)



Lis, I thought of you when I read this:

Touch of Heaven

What is it like to have a baby

Fall asleep while holding your fingers?

It is a soft, precious touch

It is relaxing, yet exciting.

It is a feeling of trust and importance.

It is so soothing it makes me want to

Fall asleep

It is a song of peace and love

What is it like to have a baby

Fall asleep while holding your finger?

It is a great gift from Heaven

(November 1999)



And finally for you Mattie: We cannot forget your written words of your hopes for life while you were with us a 10-year-old boy. You remain our peacemaker!

Peace of Patience

I cannot wait to become

A peacemaker

I cannot wait to help

The world overcome

Anger, and problems of evil

I cannot wait for the world

To be peaceful

And for everyone

To live in harmony.

I cannot wait to grow

And be and overcome.

But I will wait.

With patience,

And Hope and peace

(November 1999)


For my first blog, thank you Mattie for your book. Thank you my oldest granddaughter for leaving a mess on my coffee table. I suspect my youngest granddaughter will leave her own mess someday :)

Why the snowflake?


My business logo was designed intentionally with a snowflake because I work closely with patients, every day. Patients are unique like snowflakes; no two are exactly alike, even if they have same diagnoses. I have been working in healthcare for 30 years; 20 in hospital administration and the past 10 as the founder of Hammeras Group. I assist patients with personal navigation through their healthcare challenges and I treasure every single patient and family experience I have been blessed to have. Most are healthy and thriving but some have left us too soon, and I miss them.

What I have learned in my years of service is how little we prepare ourselves for healthcare challenges. It is not a frightening topic to prepare for. It’s smart for us to be educated enough to make wise decisions when faced with challenges in life!

Lately, I have been fighting an urge to share experiences on social media as an outlet. Welcome to my blog where I will share experiences to learn from and to honor others. Experiences that are interesting, sad, happy, boring, funny, educational, tragic, and real. Real stories to help us think more. To plan more. To ponder. Perhaps even life-saving stories.

This is good! There is a beginning. Not a beginning of my story but a beginning of every patient’s story. That first moment when we, or a loved-one, is diagnosed. It’s not necessarily bad, it’s just new. It’s different. It isn’t fun. It wasn’t in "the plan” and it caught us off-guard.

Join me on this new journey as I begin to share the real stories that have shaped my own life, and could prepare yours in a more thoughtful path.